http://christinaannjbarrett.blogspot.com

Everyone has something to their advantage.

I found that whenever I found someone I liked on Twitter, I was banned for no reason.  They might have had some reason sometimes like adding too many people, possibly then.

I just spent $6 advertizing a page on Facebook, and I am locked outta the account.

For those of you interested in attempting to discuss the unspoken, I will.  They probably are busy with work or studying and think my dreams distract theirs, their secret wish to be a famous performer and to hurt people like me out of instinct or reaction.  I am trying not to post these kinds of things, but this is something to be said!  May I ask why you are hiding away studying whereas I cannot seem to concentrate with you guys in the room?

Apology

Feeling sorry for wording something in a trick that I didn't care cuz I do but I mean.. it keeps being thrust upon me, though now I've found a way to deal with it.  I feel sorry for everyone's problems in forming their identity..

Social Awareness

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My Twitter

How do you promote social awareness? I do it by linking all my sites to an active blog. Blogger is free and ad-free and advanced.
— Social Awareness (@AwarenessSocial) June 19, 2014

Social Awareness Facebook Page Post

Does anyone have any ideas of how people can come together and know each other more? Is that by trying to get the attention of your favorite celeb? How about networking on places like the IMDb Message Boards or if you have a popular interest no one knows about? I do it by always keeping an active blog posted. That way, all the people who find me can link to me as a real person who is willing to talk to anyone. This group has its own little theme, as well, as you can see what happened. There are big topics in Social Awareness, like mental disorders, racism and diversity, etc. The meat of the issue is talking about people you know, usually at school if anything, and how they relate with teachers and to other students. It's about people who know people in another state or city, etc. I would appreciate anyone who is interested in giving their answer.


I also paid for it to show up in ads for some people.

Dream

It was long.  At the end my dad had a long board and threatened to wack my mom on the head so I took her away.

Other things include relatives.  I was deciding between getting a virtual dog or cat, like a Giga Pet.  It was a bit long.  I got a pet for when I saw "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

Problem

My mom put something in the way like my dad.  I was mad and making noise with a water bottle.

Facebook Page

Problem

I may not be able to keep up with rehashing through all that upset me.  'Try not to do anything bad.

Sorry

But you should know already that was a special circumstance.  Stupid is not a curse word, too..  Did I flat out call you that?  I didn't think so.

Problem

I paused my music and it turned back on.  It was from the keyboard, pressed it lightly I guess..

Computer

Something changed.

LEAVE ME ALONE

ABOUT MY BABY

Problem

You think I just want stimulation.

SHUT UP

THEY SAID YUP THIS'LL BE THE BABY

Problem

They said, "Then, I'll rip it inside."  SHUT UP!

Why

Why are you picking on me?  Quit being mean cuz you were mean and made me say stupid.  I can't think of a thesaurus.  They think their kid is better than me.

PROBLEM

QUIT BEING MEAN TO ME

Problem

Quit being stupid, you started getting mean.

I'm alone.

Not mad.  I was just upset.  What's the big deal?  Who doesn't get irritated?  It'll take time.

Update

I added this to the side of my blog: Tumblr.

MY GOAL

IS TO BE NICE, I JUST GET UPSET AND HAVE TO CONTROL MY OUTWARD ACTIONS, I MIGHT FORGET @ IT..NOT NECESSARILY, MOST'D DISAGREE

Got Mad and Can Get Mad Again

People are saying it's my fault about something.

he ha

but where's the lovely spanish lady-wak for the tura lura lady

Did you know

IMDb's not working?

Problem

I don't wanna be close to my dad, so don't punish me for it.

Problem

Who asked my dad into my social life?  I don't need his prattling reiterations.

Problem

Why does Ellen like hurting me and others?  She has no reason to.  She's just making mistakes.

Problem

Stop annoying me just to make me fill out Word Captchas!  ARE YOU INSANE.  You can't do this!  It is also illegal!

QUIT IT.

Someone just sent me this link https://t.co/UtkQ2W6nuC & to let you know, that's not a fb page for my blog, just someone pretending it is.
— Lily-Rose Depp (@Lilyrmdepp) June 17, 2014

THEY JUST MADE FUN OF ME AND DID SOMETNING AGAIN

B4

Orlando was flooded with black music agencies.

What's to Wake Up For

It's interesting you use others's stupidity as hatred for me.  I wake up each day to this.

Problem

People should not copy Ellen and be mean.

Weird

Ellen should not have had any problems with me cuz I'm cool in a crowd.

I can't agree.

I think that someone really just is playing with me.

Problem

I hope you haven't spoken with these people, Bella.  It would mean I can't trust anyone.

Problems

STOP TALKING, YOU ANNOYING SINNERS.

So, who did it?

STOP

STOP TRYING TO LOOK AT ME LIKE I'M SORRY NOW.

Problem

What do I have to look forward to, that Ellen, what a bitch.

Problem

Those people watching me are being stupid saying I should be confined if I try to make Sarah's injury seem valid for a break.

Problem

Bella won't stop being a nuisance.

Problem

I told Ellen her posts have a different meaning.  She has no right to intervene in my relationships with others.

What a spectacle.  I do not feel the least bit guilty, and I do not want a reminder of you.

Get the people in the experiment.  They won't stop.

Problem

I had the right to be upset.  I didn't really do anything I shouldn't in that situation.  I leanred some thing|s not to do again.

Problem

She was gonna tour in August 1st.  I bet someone told her to do this.

"I have suffered a hairline fracture to my ankle and have been advised by my doctors to rest it until September by which time it will have fully recovered. I have, regrettably, taken the decision to cancel my forthcoming US dates in August.

I truly apologise for any disappointment caused." Sarah Brightman

siesta & sorry

WHAT

WHAT'S THE BIG DEAL.  YOU KEEP BOTHERING ME.

STOP

I DON'T WANNA TALK TO YA

THEY STARTED A PATTERN

HUH

Is Bella messin' wit' me?  I'm sorry Bella, but this is why I'm hot.

Who do I care about?

Starving kids in Africa.

STOP IT

Bella threatened I'm having a baby that's dark.

Problem

They won't stop!  They are threatening my children cuz I don't care if Bella Thorne looks tacky, cuz ya'll did it.

Problem

They were teasing me this morning and like the energy left me.  I sang 1 1/2 hours last night.  Now, I don't feel like it cuz my voice is still damaged from throwing up.

STOP

I DON'T AGREE WITH YOU THAT I SHOULD BE IN TROUBLE!  I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE.

Problem

I can't report what they said!  I'm busy!

Problem

I'm trying to record my singing and they are bothering me.  You have no right.  NOW GIT!  I SAID SHUT UP!

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It's fair to say

no one likes me.  I don't wanna see plastered before the whole world the fact I spammed my friends and I'm worthless.  Actually they didn't respond and needed help.  I was alone and didn't think of getting a blog.  I am not doing so well there.  I don't know what people want people to put on a blog.

Composer

Video

Andrew Lloyd Webber

link

More Apology

I should not have imagined anything.  I'll have to punish myself.  I just feel bad, though.  Maybe, I should just stop being weird.  That's almost a matching sacrifice.  I just thought hey, but too much is at stake here.

Apology

I was saying get at someone just like talking.  I shoulda taken the extra time to say something else cuz it's important.  I never meant any of what else you'd think it'd mean.

36 Songs to Tour and Record

Broadway

My Fair Lady
Wouldn't It Be Loverly
I Could Have Danced All Night
Show Me

The Sound of Music
The Sound of Music
My Favorite Things
Climb Every Mountain
Edelweiss

Cats
Macavity
Memory

The Phantom of the Opera
Think of Me
Angel of Music
The Phantom of the Opera
Music of the Night
All I Ask of You
Wishing You Were Somehow Here, Again

Starlight Express
I Am the Starlight
Only He

Jesus Christ Superstar
I Don't Know How to Love Him
Gethsemane

Evita
Another Suitcase, Another Hall

Oklahoma!
O, What a Beautiful Mornin'
I Cain't Say No

Gypsy
Some People
Let Me Entertain You
I Have a Moo Cow
Wherever We Go
Rose's Turn

A Chorus Line
What I Did for Love


Classical

Andrew Lloyd Webber
Pie Jesu

O Mio Babbino Caro
Gia il Sole dal Gange


Oldies

The Carpenters
Rainy Days and Mondays
Top of the World

Petula Clark
Downtown

Peter, Paul, and Mary
If I Had a Hammer
Leaving on a Jetplane

Problem

If my parents did it, I'm not mad at you for it.  Why be scared of them?  I'm not, am I?  What is it anyway?  What's wrong with me?  What's about my parents?  I haven't quite touched base on this with anyone..  Someone fill in on this?  I mean, if you think I hurt you.  You set a guy to follow me home when I was tired and didn't know where to turn..

This is something like 1 + 1.  Why wouldn't the most important people who happen to be in my life not understand?  I don't care @ any'all, gotta be carefuyl.  I do care about ya'll.  But something always happens.  I looked over it, actually, but I guess others thought it was important..

Ha Ha

I didn't start anything with anyone.  You all are wrong.  What' war with what I said?  (What's wrong with what I said, then?)

What?

I didn't start anything.  If it weren't for Tim Burton, it wouldn't be.  I'm NAT doin' it.  I still don't know who all does what?  I was just nice, but my mom tests me and you take it and think to yourselves how worthless I am.  Well, so what?  You're always mean.  It doesn't mean you're never nice.  You don't know what I want or no one lets me do what I want.

Got that, this wouldn't be if it weren't for Tim Burton or Charlie and the Chocolate Factory!!!!

Did you just come to ruin my life all too soon?  Those other people you think are better than me.

You used that for yourself.

You all are not worth anything to me, you're liars and stealers.  It's stupid.  I'm not changing for Tim Burton.  You may as well go away.  I'm not here to lick poop.  I don't mean anyone is poop!  You all hurt my feelings, and I don't seem to care about any of you that much, and there's no reason it should be that way.  What's my dad worth?  You all mistreat me to make him happy.  That's all this is.  He doesn't mind you talking to me and being nice.  I don't need a 1 2 punch.  I think my mom knows and we're just worried he'd act up.  I saw him lose control of his thoughts and attitude today.  It doesn't mean he's worth less than others.

Problem

So, why is a death threat okay?

I didn't do anything.  No one in this mudhole is proper..

Well, she says it doesn't matter. Well, she says it doesn't matter.

So, it won't matter for her.

Problem

I can't talk to people who think I endanger them cuza everyone hating me.  Thanks a lot, Tim Burton, you don't give a damn if your competition as a successful adult dies.  You're disillusioned that I want to be the only 1 in the world.  Who did this to you??  I don't wanna think you did it, but I feel you're a part of it.

Well

The singing was better than I thought.

Well..

There are subtleties.  I meant the fact existed.  for some things

Get Word Around

Not Singing is Not Better

for any pro fession

Sang 1:26

1 hr 26 min - recorded

Something Creepy

My Gramma likes me a lot, but with how much I like her she tends to think she can manipulate me.

Keyboard

I have to play w/o the pedal for now.  The plug was rusty for some reason.

Facebook

Facebook

Sarah Brightman

Christina Barrett Here are little clips of my own day! I love yours, Sarah.. I'm not saying anyone has to watch this if they're just here for Sarah.

2:40- http://youtu.be/1h5dcjRIQ-E?t=2m40s
4:09- http://youtu.be/1h5dcjRIQ-E?t=4m9s
til 5:00

1:19
http://youtu.be/XtezhhUthTI

2:40-3:01
http://youtu.be/UutaxQ9AKUI

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Did you know the land of the dolphins

is by Jacksonville FL in St. Augustine..

the big city in FL of the NE and the nation's oldest continuing city, the later.

It's called Marineland.  I lived there at 5 and 6.  We moved to the old city when I was 9, 10, 11.

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Weird

I never had my chance to speak up.

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Ugh!

None of these kids achieved anything.  They just became famous and copied attractive non-famous young people. eheheheheheh ahahahahaha

LOL that's a good 1.

So, you want someone smart like me who analyzes who she is generationwise and neatly knows what she wants, whether or not it be because of having any good parents.

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You're Greatly Mistaken..

You think I'm not in on how to behave.  Shove a camera up my butt!  In fact, you seem oblivious and with a lack of sleep.

Contacted! B] I OUTTA HEA (here)

Full Sail may hook me up, with students to tour the US and make my CD.

Meanies

I wasn't really that off topic like them.  They are racist.  That says something.

Look what this old guy wrote.

Facebook - Sarah Brightman

E William Meharra Stop these notifications, I don't care !

Like · Reply · 19 minutes ago

Who told him to do that?

Problem

These people won't be quiet and shut up.  They're not being very nice.

Problem

Some people are intervening for bad reasons.  I deserve to be talked to.

If you don't like me..

..which I don't see why I'd have to deal with that, I said you could go away.  If you wanna talk to some other young girl, be my guest.  Don't complain at me.  Anyone.

I do want to say that with other people it's a topic how I'm annoyed at people saying I'm not as good as I thought so they "pick someone else."  That's quite insulting to say all my efforts that were hijacked are worthless because of the result.

You can't throw away my life cuz you think your parents were waiting for you to grow up and trash Chinese people like me.  I see it on the streets.  I don't care if you just said no!  I'm no dummy.

I did what I was supposed to.  I'm not some weirdo.

They just talked again!

Now, they insulted us.  Forget about my dad.  He's always nasty sometimes in his behavior.  I saw him lose control.  You better believe it or git.  Perhaps, I liked some of you, but don't make my dad hurt my mom.

Arguing?

Is anyone arguing with me?  Cuz I can't see what to even look for.  I mean, like it's not, "Hi, Christina, I haev an issue I have to tell you about."  You all are acting like I'm bad.  People always said I was good already!  Very good!  Always the nicest person.  So, what's this, all of a sudden?  I admit I had a bad life already.  But this was my chance.

How I Feel

I feel the world is revolving around the mistakes of my father.

Problem

Someone followed me home and I wasn't sure how to get away.

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I have a personal life

which does not involve people.

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Submissiveness

How can Ellen DeGeneres submit to bad popular norms yet be so vicious to people for little things

Remember when..

..the size of pictures mattered?

I don't agree more and more..

People have gone crazy over me saying Oh No when my dad came home.  I was just joking sorta.  Why should I tell you why if he never asked?  You can't even last this test and wouldn't even say that.  I know "what" you are.  I'm just saying, don't mean anything stupid.

Again?

The browser did its stop thing, as well.

Bothered

Why did someone make the notification come up for me but no notification there?  I dunno, people keep notifying me on Facebook, by 1s sometimes.  :(

I guess

Some things are none of my business.  Sorry.

gotta go

Everyone just says

I understand, that someone else will disapprove if they apprive.

Apparently

This thing about me saying oh no when my dad came home became a big deal, as I no longer look pretty as I was my prettiest then.

Obsessive-Compuslive

Why are these people affecting my computer and the noies in my room?

It was supposed to be for their check.. but it's for something else now cuz they're making fun cuz they got nothing to do in life.

Problem

I think someone is antsy about me visiting my Gramma.

They are also making fun of me now!

Consideration

I don't really wanna visit my Gramma and aunt.  Before, my mom made me wanna leave so she could have time alone.

Fine, cast me out!

If a person born around 2000 acted emotional about something, someone my age would act like they were weird and pretend there's something better that will happen to them later while thinking like this.

What's wrong?

Why is my mom acting so mean?  She is upset at anything to do with Sarah Brightman.

No one knows why she was brought up, but if anything happened at Gramma's it was her fault.

Problem

Why is my dad being crazy acting like there's something wrong with Sarah Brightman?  She didn't say Happy Father's Day, but she probably has more than 1 reason.  He just is acting like a baby like he did everything he's supposed to.  He thinks people like me are weird and don't deserve anything.  So, there's that!  He can't do anything he wants.  He doesn't even matter, essentially, to this point.  He will not shut up.  He's a nuissance.  He's not supposed to be here.  Capiche??  No Capiche??  What, do I have to wear my earplugs?  I don't HAVE to.  He'll just annoy me some other time, either way.  The earplugs are for if I feel I need more quiet, don't want to hear any rumbling of cars outside or whatnot.  My noise maker is on.  Would you say he's outta place?  Get this.  I no longer care what you people think about me being treated so badly for anything I've ever done.  My dad even thinks it's because other people won't approve, but I think they should.

Sorry for anything offensive, I don't see it that way.  I see it as explaining something, simply, something to walk over and hope doesn't happen again!  See, I even went back and apologized.  Who does that when they're mad?!  I think what I said was merely descriptive of the circumstance.

I got threatened by someone else, too.  I think it's also the vibes of that person.

I'm a bit mad at how things turned out for me, I must admit.  I see negativity in everything.  I learned I am to admit these things.

I think my dad wants me to not like Sarah Brightman so I can be forgiven for this, but he's just being stupid.  This is shit.  What do you want me to say about it?  I like her!  Stop making things so difficult that aren't even that important, meaning this was easy breazy until the incident tha wasn't the incident!

A reminder, sorry for the way the message seems to come across and the negative terms, but I kept it without any direct issues.

Sorry for the Bluntness of the "Joke"

I have an idea.

I will go ahead and tell Ellen's mom she should not have paid any attention to her. 

Apology

I'm so sorry for my vividly wrong thoughts yesterday.  Hopefully, today will be another day, a better day.

Dream

Ellen DeGeneres, not seen much, had a baby, hard to tell, but we saw the baby.  It seemed like a boy but was a girl.  It was an infant.  It slid down and laughed, named principessa, and even slid or got across to another side rolled over and slid more and cried.  I got that Ellen wanted the baby to teach itself.  It was a white-looking baby, shriveled and pink.

"WE"

were not set up to feel special like the kids born around 2000.

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Up to No Good

I know what some people are up to.  They have a chance with people.  They think that I was able to "take 'it all.'"  They are leading me into losing those opportunities.  They don't realize that all they have to do is make one simple change and when they're ready to do that they have these explosive dreams on how high up in the world they will be, like over everyone else.

I know this for a fact.

No one gives a fart over me.

Bella Thorne just wants to have fun, without adults intervenin'.

With me dad, people just can't seem to forget about him when talkin' to me.

So, about me, why make things any worse?  Why keep diggin' a hole?

I'm just "here."  If anyone wants to talk like I do.

Bullying

Why do people think I'm shit?  They wanna buy a Disney album to say someone is better than me.  Someone from England to someone in the U.S.  If it weren't for me, it wouldn't matter.

It is possible they already know me.  I don't understand.  Why am I unimportant?

Danger - Caution - Warning

I feel I'm being held at knifepoint by someone to get attention from people whenever I get it.  I don't like it.  Who'd want to feel something specific like this when you talk to someone?  Why can a person be upheld over me?

Singing

People must hate singing if they can critique me and say what I did was done easily yet they don't do it.

Question

Nothing is happening.  I'm up and I'm blogging.  }:]  You know, lotta people run away who know they'll be liked.  It seems so self-uplifting.

Ha Ha

I got a copy of Spanish Lady!  (Irish)

Karaoke

Should I delete it?

I didn't want to do anymore.  I figured 1 since I don't really know..  ':|

Cleaned Computer

Now, it's all clean.

Problem

They are bringing up things I don't want brought up to associate with other memories but not other people.

Problem

If I am physically not okay, it's not my fault.

Problem

My mom wants to stimulate me and let someone else be with someone I liked.

Apology

Sorry for bad posting skills.

Mobile

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Brat

She wants "a tRRAINed squirrel."

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WILL SOMEONE STOP HER

Ellen probably made Bella not talk to me anymore nor nicely.

No Fun

Bella Thorne.  She seems nice except not to me.

Look

Bella is being a brat.  I never started anything ot perpetuate in my life.

Problem

I see other people comfortable online.  Why are people out to get me and irritate me and do all those little things to me.  Someone pops up the monster from the black lagoon.

Problem

These people won't stop!

Quit finding guilt in me.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Should snotty brats get attention from 'you and others?'

by ChristinaAnnJBarrett » just now

IMDb member since May 2014

Bella Thorne was upset I don't accept her being s h i t to me. I mean she treats me like s h i t. I just Retweeted something someone saying I <3 you and she was all like p i s s e d. She wants me to feel below. She must have a mental disorder, or something. She lost her dad.

She's part Italian and Irish from a nice, young mom.. and her dad was an attractive Spanish man, not big and bushy. She knows I'm Chinese, like Ellen DeGeneres is Jewish from her mom's last name. I think she's being racist to me. Also, people don't think I'm respectable anymore and are teasing me all the time about "what I don't deserve." It's weird, too.

 just an animal watching time go by under a silly summer sun

Problem

Now, people are feeling all giddy.

My New Pic

It's when I was 17!  It's a thin pic.  I was encouraged to put it up, and a lotta people are mad at me.

And they wanted me to feel like shit and stimulated.

Problem

They were making fun of me.  You are not supposed to do that about this.

Problem

I got a daze feeling in my eyes when I saw Elle Fanning, after, and they tried to plant that ability in me of younger people being better all of a sudden.  What is wrong with who's doing this?  Ellen thinks it's her.

Problem

They losened the back of my left shoulderblade, like I've reached a limit of being too big.  It's something that's not right, though.

Problem

I don't want to be made fun of.  Ellen DeGeneres is not better than me, nor is anyone else just cuza fame.  I am famous locally and have been sorta..  I can have my fantasies.  I mean, that's what everyone else can have.. ':/  No one's answering me that much, see.  If I was talking to someone, I wouldn't make a face.

Sad

I woke up upset, my mom.

Why should I think I have anything?

I don't like when Ellen makes me feel on edge, how it is, she keeps acting like she's God, like we can't rebel at all cuz then she wouldn't "do it."  Can someone explain and fix this?  I'm sure this will be a problem intellectually to understand anything and how mad we can get at something she says.  It will come even if we don't want it to.  It's work.  It hasn't worked.  I wanted it to.  Maybe, I should ask maybe she is getting old, along with Sarah Brightman.  So sad.  I wasted all these years..  xp

My Mom's Accent

It's really British, but so can I.  It's funny they say for Jacob "Jyay kub."  I know my mom does it like just like that.

See

You all think I don't deserve anything for being good!

Problem

I didn't accept that I was born to be mistreated.  I dunno can anyone explain?  It wasn't my fault.  I do not believe in being mistreated for incidents.  By the way, I'm good.  I just get hurt sometimes and sometimes am told I did something, pushed.. I need to be alone.

Problem

If I am hurt by these jokes of others being better, then why do you do it?

Problem

I am tired of these people talking to me in my room.  The computer is slow in some things, too..

Problem

I don't care about anyone, you can't tell me I did something and then make life hard.

What

So, I am being insulted by people about Bella being better just for fun?  I don't need to pretend anything to not go overboard.

Problem

Who made fun of my current pic and made me post an old 1 cuz it isn't a joke.

To Be More Real

She just does it, like has to be exactly like the most popular person, does not have to do it good.  Still gets all the attention!  Like Chloe with Tim Burton in the movie.  Or like think about what else is successful.

I am so rry

But Bella has no manners, plunges in 1st and has to get all the attention without the dexterous quality of letting others get it out.

PROBLEM

Thank you for putting my music video #CallItWhatever in the top 10 on itunes! Next week top 5! #Goals http://t.co/QQ5aN3LMie
— bella thorne (@bellathorne) June 15, 2014

HOW DARE YOU GIVE ME NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO.   LET'S TRAP ELLEN AND MY DAD.  Well, did she do it?

Affecting Me

Bella's discovery should not really affect my success.  If it does, then I need to know now.

Mad

If this is about Bella, you do the work!  She doesn't deserve to take all that I earned about myself!!!!

More Lies

@bellathorne the Call It Whatever music video is number 9 on iTunes Bella! #CallItWhatever pic.twitter.com/hW8ENGs1iQ
— bella thorne✌️ (@BellaTFan) June 15, 2014

But you think it's true and are just talking to me.

I am annoyed.  I don't like Bella acting tacky.  These messages are a waste of my time to go into.  She is like the girl who pulls down the letters on a game show against me.  I feel her rubbing in something.  Oh, go find someone else who will talk to you.  She's too scared to feel, and I'm not waiting.  Too bad too sad.  :(

Problem

You all are just being like weird.  I don't wanna play pretend to hurt me.  Why are you all up in my private life like that and ya'll never get in trouble?  That's not exactly what I meant.  Why do some of you feelgood?  You may find it in appropriate cuz it's not @ you.

Problem

Ellen is a criminal.  I don't want people doing Bella instead of me.  Ellen doesn't deserve all she has, then.

These people watching me are being annoying..

Problem

What's wrong with Bella!?  I thought she was just a sweet girl.

Problem

Request #Callitwhatever by my princess @bellathorne call radio Disney 1-877-870-5678 or http://t.co/5X6Vs1kHyy :*
— Jommanh. (@jommanhSH) June 15, 2014

Why won't these idiots shut up? Stop stealing my relationships..

Problem

WHAT.

Did someone have to tell me to "leave??"  What's going on!  Leave me alone!

Man loves a leaf blower just about as much as he can love anybody.
— Bethenny Frankel (@Bethenny) June 15, 2014

Problem

Who just called me a nigger?

Cleaned

I cleaned my room a little.  I have laundry for tomorrow at least.

Question

So, what, college cheated me out?

Twitter

We love @jackieevancho's pretty dress so much that we made it our fave look of the day! See it HERE --> http://t.co/eZHyT0Odjr
— TWIST magazine (@twistmag) June 15, 2014

So, I wonder what's up now.. more dissing of me because of Tim Burton?

Problem

What does Bella have to look forward to?

No One

I swear, I never had problems before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

What Keeps a Musician Going

Is knowing they are still important.

What would keep me going is if my dad could afford me an apartment, but I like living with my parents.

I'm sorry, is something wrong already?

See, if you get mad at nothing, something will happen.

So..

..I was upset for awhile and a bit wild so sorry.  It could happen again.  I didn't ruin anything..

Mistake

Ellen thinks there's only 1 way of thinking and that you can't prepare.

Well

Do you wanna know how painful it was?  I will not consider it my doing.

Deailng With It

I just can't.  My life is too much a mess, my room is.

How can I leave the internet when I'm on it?

Question

Sarah, you think I am recently guilty?  Oops, not really asking.  Why are my parents being so mean?  They think I am good and need to be tested but are being mean.

Wonder if Someone Was Gonna Die

I tried to slam in on my slippers.  1 foot was gripped, the other flared back.  Bella makes it not worth it to be alive in this world.

Why? 1 Cuz they keep talking about her and using her to hurt me.

Wretched

You don't treat Bella like this.  If you mistreat her it's cuz she's in trouble.  I am never in trouble.

I have to alert you of something dangerous.

Who ruined it for me or talked to someone about it?  That I'm something perverted to be picked up?  When someone touches me, I don't want to think about it.

I have an idea.

I will go ahead and tell Ellen's mom she should not have paid any attention to her.

Wen

I'm doing a Wen treatment on my hair.

Rest

I have to give my throat a rest.

Mobile

may or may not post

Problem

I don't appreciate people suggesting things to me like I'm worth nothing cuz I did something online that was illegal..

Problem

Ellen can't sit on it long enough to believe I did anything wrong.  I was just upset, and you post anything on your blog unless it's illegal.

If I did, you should still not be so rude.

STOP

Why is Sarah Brightman not allowed to be nice to me?  I just want to destroy everything in site.  I think you're wrong, got that settled.

STOP = I don't know exactly what to say nor do I want to say it.

I feel hurt.  You all are not nice like before with Tim Burton.  Is this for him and Nell?

Problem

It's interesting to follow Bella..

big news coming soon!
— bella thorne (@bellathorne) June 14, 2014

I won't take this infusing people in my relationships and taking what I do with more the 1 person too seriously.

So, what's the point? Ellen just got mad or people trying to please my being good-for-nothing in this dad. I've already been grouped, and I feel no one likes me. I said to call it off. I'm not telling you in what way I mean, I see. Also, Ellen is weird. I wouldn't tell someone I like not to talk to me. Thinking of why is different. I guess it's because people are attractive.

You know, Bella is being treated like the delicate princess. It's interesting ot know. I don't like her bossiness..

I contacted an agency

to direct me in my wish

And

for MY grand finale

If my aunt thinks my dad's crazy, why do I have to put up with all of him?

THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD

I AM TOTALED!

Tumblr

I know..

..none of you have to go through the method of all the details of why you've done what you've done.  If you didn't, then kindly remove yourself from my life.

(cont.)

Why?  I don't feel I can feel anything but from myself.

Not the Mama

Ellen

So, go ahead, fun and find..

If my dad said what he was thinking..

..he'd be in jail..

I don't.

Can't you Goddamn niggers ever move on cuz I don't give a shit @ you.

In the Car

I sang like all 60 karaoke songs I remembered the words to.

So

Bella was not abused cuz she wasn't a Buton fan, so-to-speak.

New Pictures of Me

Sorry

Was being nasty, don't mean anything against anyone.

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Goal

I wanna make a CD and tour steada Disney.

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Problem

Why is everyone on about Bella Thorne. For some reason, it's critically onto me. Why follow my reaction? Stop threatening me! D:' You're just giving me more to type. Actually, the people around me don't like it.

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Apology

I'm so sorry and got race-ly upset this morning. I'll try turning off.

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So

Don't fight over who does what, figure it out.



Sorry I was so mad.. I just felt like hitting. Like, sorry to burst my bubble. Got too violent. There there. Sorry for using a name. It isn't right to hurt me, tho. I do feel framed.

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Going Thru Things

Starting to like me less? Sorry I was irrational. Worthless is an important vocabulary word. I was being force m*****ed to not feel outsidea my family. Quit trading what I earned for BELLA. It's pretty bad here. This hurts and is such shit! I am tired of fighting. I don't know if someone decided to pattern and call me or if I had a multicultural baby a nigger. You getting antsy caused all these problems. If I didn't earn anything, why wouldn't I be treated like Bella Thorne? Too many people just shit to a kid? Bella is mean to take from me. STOP BEING BEMUSED and stop threatening me @ caring @ you after death! Bella didn't uncover this. You think I was untalented. Why is it suddenly too late and everyone else is as good? Some people are bothering me. If I was in high school, I'd still mean something. Maybe, the medicine is making me die. @ me wanting to hurt people, it's dangerous and I'm pushed to feeling and not changing from being shit. Some people are really upset with me.. woo hoo. I'm tired @ your shit @ my family. I mean the problems they have. They won't stop being dumb. Sending me dumb messages. Oh well. Does it bother you?

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Problem

You all listen to my dad or call me things I could sue you for.



You can't keep watching me closely. Some things you do my parents don't!

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Problem

You all listen to my dad or call me things I could sue you for.



You can't keep watching me closely. Some things you do my parents don't!

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Problems

You are trying to kill me for something Ellen doesn't like. I will make fun of this big program.



People keep telling me I should not be who I am to this day for things like Bella. I just felt upset by some people, sayd (sad.)

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Problem

You all listen to my dad or call me things I could sue you for.



You can't keep watching me closely. Some things you do my parents don't!

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STOP

Bella can't get everything. It's mine!

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Problem

You all listen to my dad or call me things I could sue you for.



You can't keep watching me closely. Some things you do my parents don't!

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SHUT UP YOU

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My Freedom

My gramma would get at me if I posted @ her being mean. Ya'll are goddamn picky @ any little thing in the past. You are irrational.



Now, I don't but seem to have to beg for any attention.



Stop acting like I did something! You are getting in my personal life, again. I didn't do anything. I don't even care @ you! Sound familiar?? I am not satisfied. Stop it! Shut up! Stop irritating me to wanna k*** you now.

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I feel upset.

No one cares @ me. When did you think this turn of events is okay. Someone is being really stupid. I feel like I'm being r***ed. Like I can't feel outside-a my family. I don't love them. I dunno, they are shit. I don't mean my little brother so much. I hear an annoying noise. Someone has found me. What are my parents? An excuse not to talk to me? Hm, well, I feel they are that mean collectively. I'm supposed to not say that, but people keep saying everything I do is for Bella and taking away from me other relationships. Nothing weird happened. I thought I was already accepted. My Gramma was mean. I need to stay away from others. If I get the Disney job holiday dancing, I can live alone in a special place for Disney cast members. I don't wanna be played with. Nothing is for me. I wanna meet people. But I'm stuck with my parents at 28. I feel m*****ed. If Bella gets everything, why not take it away like with me? I earned that, and it is taken from me. It's easy to do what you are supposed to. Stop bugging me about something special you give to anyone for age. I don't want to be made guilty. This is unfair. Shut up! I didn't do anything. Shut up! Stop it!!! You are nothing. I can't sleep! Just shut up stupid! This is a crime!

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Problem

THE MESSAGES AREN'T STOPPING!



I thought we coulda had something going. Forget @ my dad and gramma.



How am I supposed to feel good? What is your problem? You are so not worth it. I said you did something. Not saying anyone in particular. :I What? I demand you to stop it. I don't know how to stop this.

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Thanks a Lot

I don't know what mattered to you, but how dare you frame me into not meeting people. They are meeting other people.



I want this to stop.



You want me to think I don't have a personality. You want me to think I'm bad for no reason! What effort do I seem to lack? Is this the cry of ethnicity-race? Stop lying that I wanna be Asian. No, I do not disrespect them.



My dad is the 1 who is disrespectful and not me. I don't have anything, and I deserve to have succeeded. My life is leaving, slipping away from my hands.



Why won't anyone just talk to me? How do I get to know these people?

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Well

Maybe, I should not be afraid of if I'm up late.



So, what is the answer to people unhappy if someone attractive gives me attention? Did it touch a nerve? Come on. You don't really harass everyone like this. I'm not up @ equality of distribution. It isn't the same issue. Not everyone can know a few people personally. With that factor comes time, and it ain't a lifetime for anyone. Also, posting publicly, anyone should look. Don't sit there and try to complain @ these things to me.

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Apology

for if I've been rude.. ): ..

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Mas Problemas Mucho Grande

Ellen DeGeneres seems to have a reverberating effect I wish not to worry @. She acts like she needs some things kept to herself. Like attention. That's a lesson for talking to her. I don't like how my chance with her was thrown away with Tim Burton. This is far from amazing. I don't wanna die like this. I deserve to be famous over Burton. I'm sorry Ellen you can't admit when you were wrong and Mama knows it and it affects the world if you think what I do matters so much.



Maybe, she should branch out and somehow reach more people personally. We like her like Portia.

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Then Problems

Why is my dad so schizophrenic and wants to hurt me emotionally?



See, I am nice. They just want me to feel belittled cuza race. Funny how they trigger to someone like me who doesn't make any problems. Leave me alone if you aim to bug me like this and go coocoo if I talk @ something.



I won't stop being bugged.



This is a worthy topic, but I was trying to avoid talking @ it. Someone younger does not deserve more than older kids. You're disillusioned.

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LUV 8D

Spinning round and round in a festival with a bemused look.



Tim Burton not doing Alice 2. Art does not simply appear nor come to you.. "1% inspiration 99% persperation."



Why do adults idealize older children being infatuated by the youngest? They were supposed to do something.. Something happened that seemed big, but it became a topic outside of that math. I don't care what they want to see. They can't do that to someone younger they don't really love..

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And

You're not listenin' to all I say. (Shoop Shoop Song)



We didn't even have class bells.



I think I just crackedm

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I was so sad..

I said forget the barbie and coke if I'm too old to have ***y parents.



I am upset in the head.



No one will ever get around to playing with me. I am never made the center of attention.

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Apology

for letting my thoughts run free. I changed it immediately. I am a little upset in the head.

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Fun

New Orleans may be good, but if you cannot be New Orleanian do not have to feel it's better.



Can you be mad, emotional, and concerned at the same time?



Everyone knows I deserve something good to happen. I shoulda known you'd drop your pants.



Might think being from Jax, it was sweet to be there, but it's work and organization and responsibility.



Harmony: That's where it is!



So why is it a pain to give me affection but not those 10 years younger?



You want your kids not to be you but your kids.



Am I too old to appreciate classical singing?



Why are cool people obsessed that weird things are wrong?



So, Sarah Brightman makes you feel awake?



Why do Southerners hate people with Northern blood?



I want to sing The Prayer and Time to Say Goodbye with Andrea Bocelli. I was watching Time to Say Goodbye on YouTube.

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Fun

New Orleans may be good, but if you cannot be New Orleanian do not have to feel it's better.



Can you be mad, emotional, and concerned at the same time?



Everyone knows I deserve something good to happen. I shoulda known you'd drop your pants.



Might think being from Jax, it was sweet to be there, but it's work and organization and responsibility.



Harmony: That's where it is!



So why is it a pain to give me affection but not those 10 years younger?



You want your kids not to be you but your kids.



Am I too old to appreciate classical singing?



Why are cool people obsessed that weird things are wrong?



So, Sarah Brightman makes you feel awake?



Why do Southerners hate people with Northern blood?



I want to sing The Prayer and Time to Say Goodbye with Andrea Bocelli. I was watching Time to Say Goodbye on YouTube.

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Apologies

To anyone thought to be crass about.

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Stuff

For some reason, my body was or is swaying with breath. Something stressed popped.



New Facebook photo.



Is it a contest to you personally that whoever has *** with their dad gets a hug from someone like Ellen?



I know the way. You may not be the center of attention now but know how likely I can get in trouble.



Sorry your late babies need so much reassurance.



Chind actors are not the center of the world.



Imagine the genius France's adults born in the 70's is.



I'm a straight up Florida girl.

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This'll

make a person fart and fall over the table.



I didn't do anything wrong thoughtwise. You all give me the annoying messages.

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Wut..

I guess Facebook does not show all posts.



Also, my gramma, whose older than Ellen DeGeneres's mom by 2 years, told my dad she is ready to die and may in a year and a half. She seems a bit dead, like my retired aunt.

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Issues

Why have my relationships been trashed?



It doesn't make me feel good to always see mean people get the sugar in life their way.



I don't appreciate being supposedly manipulated, like if I have a kid. My decisions are mine. You can't keep knocking guilt in me for things you are afraid to speak up about. Say it, don't spray it. I might disagree. I'm being played with. You all just keep peeing in your pants and being robots. Sometimes, we've bent the rules, and some things are technically a way we don't perceive.



I don't wanna sit here and talk @ lies of things I won't get. I am fine how I am.



Why are people playing with what's in my body and what belongs to me?



People are so *** trying to catch me doing wrong. They have it up regularly, like a class in school. Talk @ a challenge. Being mean to me does not make you a good person.



They are messing with me in private. They are so tacky and annoying on the edge of their seat. So shallow. This is annoying me now.



Others play around, but when I do it seems wrong.



I heard that another person is beer for me.



Why am I being constantly attacked? Stop picking at me, liars. Why don't you just leave me alone? 'd be a pity. Something is bothering me trying to sleep. It won't stop. Stop telling me what to do. I'm already being okay!



Why do you repeat?

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College

What degree? Dance, or just ballet classes? Singing?

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Nite

Good night mi lovely .. Ellen



Bella, Chloe Grace Moretz, etc..



Sarah, the magnificent

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Problem

The stuff isn't stopping.

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Disturbed

My mom swung her arm thru like nothing was in me as someone.

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Problems

I got another annoying message from Ellen. D:



Nothing I can do @ what I did, but it's not what you think.

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Tired

People are tracking me down.

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Problem

I'm being annoyed.. Poked @ like Ellen did something. This person called me a l******. STOP! Ellen always says something bad. I wouldn't. I mean, I don't give a f*** @ what other people do. I won't try to be popular for them. I am annoyed. I didn't bring ear plugs.

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Apology

Not sure what to for now but sorry get cornered and mad. :(

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Wut

Stop saying I did something. Let's agree you did.



Did Facebook change so I have to read all the fan comments on mobile?



Wut? This isn't always fun.



Why can't you explain. I don't agree.



Wutever, I'll just post this. I'm already perplexed. I said I was cornered.. I'll just gripe and blame my problems.



Something else just happened..

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Mobile

may or may not post

Problem

They keep telling themselves they got me in the end.  I already said what I thought.

Problem

They're trying to turn me off, and the girls on Twitter are nasty.

Did you ever see into

how people are so tacky to be mean to me?

Bored

It's "in" to be outlandishly mean to me.

Insteada others ruining my life.

Problem

They are lying to me about stuff, like saying I can't do such and such.  Important things, social life.  They're fighting back now.

The Want to Kill

People want to kill people who are better than their kids.

So, who told her to..

..think these silly things?  I was right.  She just wants to say she took of someone.  I drew a picture of her with her hand around me on my breast, thinking she'd think that was the cool thing to do but has no care of "touching" people nor do I of being touched, as far as talking about it in a weird way would go.

I'm me.

If no one has anything to say, I'll be alone finding my true self, again.

"Are you okay??"

Well, at least you'll get rid of me faster.

I would never try to hurt anyone.  I have to wake up..

Just Watched This-

Getting Attention

Wow, Sarah, what do you know?  I don't get attention.  So, what was going on..

Test

Sarah, I am ready to lock you up and see if you understand I am not less attractive than the people you think I am.  Ya'll are rude.

Lock you up and see if malnutrition has any affect on you or racial background!

I'm just funning, dodos.

Issues

I don't feel loved anymore, Sarah, like you do.

You can't get at me with my Gramma cuz yer racist.

Meanie

Sarah Brightman thinks all my good qualities that make who I am should be no more and go to Bella Thorne.

Vocaroo

Some parts some interesting if you are up now and wanna hear what I'm doing.. not good, though.


Audio and voice recording >>

I don't mean to be rude..

..but what's up with that?

So

They might be kidding, might have some thing over me.. can't stop me.  I just can't live with it.

Problem

They said, "No, tonight I'm doing JD."  How irritating.  STOP!

If someone is mean, then they were mean.

Sarah Brightman wants to keep me outta good experiences and make fun of me?  I don't want her to keep thinking this weird shit about me..  (I hope you think the word shit sounded humorous..)

Like, I can't sing anywhere?  What did I do?  I just told people I was mad and was more forceful at 1st.

Sad

I just wanna be on people's good sides.  I sometimes can't sort out my thoughts and then post them on my blog and feel I've come to some conclusion.

Sorry

You all keep bothering me.

STOP

YOU CAN'T TELL ME NO - I DON'T HAFTA LISTEN - STOP TREATING ME SHITTY

Problem

They're teasing me and said I can't follow Sarah Brightman.

Problem

I try to sit and think, but I feel like I'm being closely monitored..  Why think it?  If you can't write it?

Facebook

link

Problem

Ellen started this problem sequence.

STOP

My mom is being trashy.

Weird

You act like I'm on Sara and Ellen all the time, but I'm not!  They can talk to anyone, not just me!  It'd be a pity to just trash my chance, though.

Can't Bottle It Up

I didn't want to say anything, but something's wrong.  I could have ignored it, but that's all they're saying.

Problem

These people are being coy like I wanna think @ them.  They think they ***y niggas.

Wha?

So how do you explain if there are kids who 1 is black 1 is white that my brother should be the same?

Article

comments by mem too

link

I tried

to have a good relationship.  YOU KEEP GETTING ALL UPPITY AND WANTING ME TO ADMIT PERSONAL THINGS ABOUT WHAT I DO OR HOW I ACT.

Problem

Stop talking to me, you *beep*  This is so worthless.

Problem

Ellen wants Sarah Brightman only to talk to Bella.  She did it.  I didn't do anything bad because of her.  You guys are just shit-to-me.  Stop being so mean.  What's your PROBLEM.  I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING.  YOU ALL ARE THE ONES CURSING AT ME BEING MEAN AND NO GOT NO RIGHT.

What's this?

Are you Sarah Brightman fighting?  WELL QUIT IT YOU *BEEP*

I don't listen to stupidity.

Mad

at Ellen

Well, yea, she put the noises in my room.

Problem

These people won't shut up and they losened a certain part of my body and made it for awhile more sensitive..

I should bang out whoever did this.  Give up your own friendship.

DON'T YOU DARE SAY QUIT IT.

Problem

I'm being made fun of for being a Sarah Brightman fan, and just because some people were mean to me and I got upset with them that they wanna shit around and sever my fanmanship.

Facebook

new friend page

link

Facebook

Problem

Quit making me mad.  I'm too old for parental punishment.  I didn't do anything to them.  They're making up stuff!

I don't wanna be pushed to be caught up in trouble with famous people.  Why, that's ridiculous.  You'd "rather" me feel embarrassed in front of them all.

What Literally Happened

I do take back the mad thoughts I had that were clearly cuz my parents were egging me on.  I'll tell you what I keep.. no attack.

It may be too late, another unfortunate situation.  It seems set up.

It's funny when you play

the organ, you need to learn all the fingers thru repetition.

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Mobile

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So

Apologies for my disposable ways, all, even my parents who were mean to me.  I must say Bella is quite a creature sometimes.  She is just how she is.  I'm not asking any question.

Problem

My parents are really ruining my life, stupid Orlando thinks I still need guardians, but I was already set free, you can't even go back..

How dare you speak to me.

I want a real relationship.

Lost My Interest Prematurely

I got mad later.  My mom said, "It was the cookies."  My dad got disgusting store cookies I don't want!!  He keeps doing something mean each time he sees his mom.  What does that mean?  Well, to teens, it goes, "Go to Hell," and I'm not sure if I'm a teen, anymore..

It wasn't the actual thing so much as I'm truly anything but fed up.  Sick! Sick! Sick!  Lost in a young adult world of my own.  I shouldn't be online.

Problem

Why do you think I'm bad?  I only am mean if you are bad.  Don't you get it?  You just don't care.  I never went out and asked any of you into my life!!

Sayd (Sad)

Those Italian women.. want to exclude kids with older dads as a reason to chose them and no someone else, too.

So

Even when mad did you notice I made sneaky word choice?

Tell me..

..are you suddenly also realizing how you like Ellen-

used my ProActive

Prayers

for my dad and mom, think I slumped them over in guilt.. :[ thanks a lot, _______________.

Facebook

Plan of Escape

I was thin and attractive on 1 point.  I will make an active physical schedule for myself at school with theater in the evenings.  Just 1 theater class, possibly also Freshman Composition 2.

Plan of Escape

I was thin and attractive on 1 point.  I will make an active physical schedule for myself at school with theater in the evenings.  Just 1 theater class, possibly also Freshman Composition 2.

You see..

..I never was upset at the actual thing.

Fluff..

Ellen DeGeneres?? the 1 with the Disney ride

When Ellen says not really, is it fluff or real?

Being Deep and Lo

Do you like people looking for attention but acting like they're all that to everyone?

No offense where I got the idea.

Problem

They made it so when I peed it didn't feel good.

Why won't they leave me alone?

You all are wasting time thinking Bella is better, but you all didn't treat me ilke I Was white even thougn I was!

Problem

I'm nice, but Ellen was unfair.

What I Found

Ellen is giving her self for Bella Thorne.

Not Really Against

Just mad, this can't happen..  Tim Burton fans?  Sarah Brightman?

Problem

STOP ACTING LIKE I'M GONNA TALK TO MY DAD AND NOT ANYONE ELSE

I think "it'"s past.

Problem

Ellen you can't be a ditz.  If I talk to someone else, you can't ruin it and think you're a wisecrack or something.

I also decided for Bella and I this is shit cuz we never really meet anyone.  It's been a long time, could die any day.

PROBLEM

THEY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE - GO HAVE SOMEONE BOTHER YOU

FINE

JUST MAKE ME LOSE MY FRIENDS "BY ACCIDENT" I KNOW I DIDN'T DO IT AND DON'T YOU MAKE FUN OF ME

Well

No hard feelings on the Bella I once knew, but they are using her to their advantage against me.  They have no dignity left cuza Tim Burton, or the minions.

I have no friends.

I don't even got acquaintances.

Just quit.

Problem

Ellen scared Sarah away.  She wants me not to have any experience.

Problem

Bella.. why are you so Goddamn selfish?

Problem

My dad didn't get me cookies at Subway even with my money like I asked.

How It Went

My mom keeps making it so I can't focus.

I'm just tired of her..

..getting MY attention

She's phony like macaroni (I mean weird.)

Wow

How long until Bella wipes that look off her face?  No offense, she does change.. why is she even worth me talking about, I feel like I'm being used..

STOP

THANKS TO MY MOM BEING NOISY AND DAD LOOK WHAT HAPPENED, NO ONE WILL BELIEVE ME

Problem

When you are more attractive and tried harder yourself, do you want acclaimed adults telling you you are shit..

STOP ELLEN

ADMIT YOU DID IT

I AM POISED

YA'LL JUST KEEP PICKING AT JUST ME

STOP IT

ELLEN

Did you just like fall over and die?

What, everyone else can get what they want?  Strike on Bella.

I CAN HAVE MY THOUGHTS

GET MY DAD, HE THREATENED TO DO SOMETHIG TO BOTEHR ME NEXT WEEK!!

Problem

Everything I deserved is being upped to Bella.  Bella is not even worth it.  You are worthless.

EW

STOP READING MY MIND AND RUINING MY LIFE.  THAT PERSON DOESN'T DESERVE SHIT.

What Else

I think Ellen got someone to maim me.  Ellen, just stop it.  We can hurt you if you hurt us.  Someone made my stomach protrude on top and more..

Wow, thanks a lot.

I may not ever have any relatioships.

I moved the table and didn't know but it hit my dad.

Well

Yes, 1st I said what I said to myself and said I gotta go thru.  It stopped.  I don't know quite how to say what I'm thinking of.

Not Sure..

What's wrong with thinking of chopping people up?  Just another "word?"  I don't think that's what I wanted, but my parents wouldn't shut up with noises in the kitchen.  I got mad and told them..

Problem

Thanks a lot, people know how I was thinking.  They wouldn't let me concentrate.  I want my real thought.

Did you notice?..

..I have to back away.

I wouldn't..

..let you touch me.

Ha Ha

So, are you even as good as Bella Thorne?

Apparently, I do..

..have a problem.

I don't need dicsipline nor restraint.  You did that to Johnny Depp.  Well, you all are cursers and liars.  Take that to the table.

What I Know Now

I saw Sarah Brightman perform in 1989, and I know I am not less ***y than her.  Means the same thing for everyone to me..  :|

Well, g'bye!

Happy for you.

Bad Adults Bad Kids

Who cares?  Really, who all gives a shit?

You famous adults want the bad kids that got what they wanted just to overtake others and supposedly appear better.  Not being sarcastic here.  Just something I found ot really be true.  Why would someone as accomplished as me not get petted, not literally?  These other shitty girls get petted about how light their hair is, etc.

Let me correct you.

We are not the only 1s.

Worship

I worship Ellen from the Disney ride.

Because It's So Beautiful

Can't argue fun against bittersweet sorrow.

Something Repulsive

My Gramma made a coy face with a deep, raspy voice that the Ellen DeGeneres Show is on why I'm not on with my gramma on the phone every day anymore.  I sent a letter when I stopped, on my birthday.

Also, Ellen does not do anything right.  She'd say well Christina should be like her Gramma in this funny feeling and dismiss me from something without a reaction, like just to be cute, see?

I'm not saying..

..I'm mad at Bella, but it's the current thing to figure out.

"Accept It"

You're gonna have to accept everyone knows at least several folks.  You can't kill every person who almost is perfect cuz you're jeaous cuz that won't solve anything.

Watch Out!

Other people will be jeaous of and mean to Bella Thorne for being considered better and wanting things she doesn't care about.

I don't think I was mean to her.  I was just saying what it was like for her.  I like her, but ever since I talked to her the adults replaced me with her.  I'm an adult, she's a teen.

I dunno, is it funny?

O Wow

I know.  It's like perfect, Bella and Ellen DeGeneres, right when I thought it was it for me, then Sarah Brightman, just because I felt a bond with her.  Fine!  Giggle at this all the time!

Being Virtuous

If you are "good," you "fix" what you do and not "what" others do.

Busy

Bella..



sacrifice me for her?

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No..

I don't believe people are better or worse than others totally.

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OK

Bella was cool, but people wanted me to feel guilt from her success. Ellen thinks well duh. Let her be the glorified 1.

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Edit

I put Sarah Brightman 2nd to Ellen DeGeneres on my list of people.

More Problems

My parents got onto me just so Nell Burton could feel the prestige with her own dad.  They are supposed to leave me alone and respect my wishes as before.  They do want me out.

My dad once saw me mad and using a water bottle to take out my anger.  He moved stuff onto where I left it on the sofa.. played around with where the phone is, and just canceled the TV and phone and maybe something else for money.

Something Weird

Okay, so I'm not a baby.  Something interesting is that they took a younger girl and babied her over me just because I was on top and they didn't want that.  It's awful annoying, and I don't really agree..

(No, I wasn't on top in an annoying way myself like she is.)

So, from here, they could put more people over me just for fun and leave me out and make things hard just for me..  Ellen already thinks her show is on top.  Like the crowd of people she wishes to associate with it.

Mobile

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Boy

Some people seem to lose it.

The things that make you..

..m********* should be done in rea life..  *flickr*

Got Upset

My dad bothered me when we were visiting, and he just kept going like I said and bad words came to mind.  I just wasn't ready to react..

Fair Win

It matters that everyone who wins is not picked on for things that are different for them cuz that has to do with hurting their feelings or not.

Racial Crowds

Black people may want to reconsider being with white people if they can't participate.

11 songs

Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
Poor, Poor Joseph
Pharaoh's Story

Jesus Christ Superstar
I Don't Know How to Love Him
Gethsemane

Cats
Macavity
Memory

Starlight Express
I Am the Starlight
Only He

The Phantom of the Opera
Angel of Music
The Point of No Return

Requiem
Pie Jesu

Idea

Get a record deal to make an Andrew Lloyd Webber CD

Mobile for Awhile

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Weird

I don't think someone like Sarah Brightman is fit to comment on the toils of living with things like the Voice and Britains' Got Talent.  I don't mean it in a sarcastic, insulting way.  I just mean it sounds like my dad or those people who kicked me out.. telling me I'm being sneaky cuz I'm not white and making it in ways others wish they did.

2 bad 2 sad

You know Ellen didn't make it?  She was mean to me, someone who everyone is careful around.

Ya'll

Ya'll check Sarah Brightman today?  She hasn't taken a break in months posting something each day on all those sites!

I just posted this on IMDb

link

me when a foreign exchange student came when we were seniors

New Video of Me Singing

Britain's Got Talent - Nessun Dorma

posted by BGT June 7

I am not my race.

Why would you say I am my race now? and as something I don't like.

Issue

A long time ago, we all had a chance.  People think Sarah Brightman looks more ***y than me, but I don't know why.  Now, people deny if you are attractive if you are not all white.

Sneaky Kids

Kids let adults who stand out attractively learn more but not the kids who are.

I found..

..Ellen is scared of her mom in a way she is not of younger people or was..

IMDb - The Soapbox

So talk to me and don't think I'm Asian. Whoops too late I don't wanna talk to you. I don't even know you, anyway. Thanks for the nice topic. 

So why didn't people talk to me in school when they knew I was part Asian? Half Asian. Why was I stuck with friends who ignored me when I spoke to them? Why does anyone care about them today cuz I spammed them?

Congrats

Ellen, all people bow down to your racial connection of blood but not of effort like me which can be overlooked..technically

What's wrong?

Ellen thinks I wasn't a cute kid?  I lost the good pix!

Just go to Hell

Someone do something about Tim Burton!  Everyone is calling me Asian I hear!  I was always too good for that, like anyone could be.

Rules

Ellen gets annoyed at me defying authority.  Being mean to me is not okay.

Problem

I told my dad my aunt said he and my Gramma were over me asking why they were being mean to me, and my dad got mad and said I was yelling.  He just doesn't wanna respond cuz he's guilty and hurt me more..

Traits

My Asian traits went awa.  The hairiness and caveman look etc. is like Jewish or Jewish traits.

Mobile for a Little While

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Vocaroo Xmas

not particularly good but substantial


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Vocaroo

Record and upload audio >>

Trying to Sing

My voice isn't improved and is lost.

Bad

The last Vocaroo, I added a note, just for 1 spot though I did it.

Competition

Changed My Mind

Not dying my hair, though I already opened the box.

Apology

I don't know if I made some of hte right decisions last night.

Adage

I may not be good enough to be a celebrity, but celebrities today aren't better than me.

Question

Why do you think the Chinese are selfish?

Problem

Stop it Ellen!!

I don't have to talk to my Gramma!  '}:[  You're *** and better stop!

Issue

I'm not gonna listen.  You'd better leave me alone.  I am mad, might have gone overboard, but my nose is not getting any better.  My Gramma keeps being mean.  She's just *beep*.

Problem

My Gramma has no right to think she can have anything against me like that.  She's not even important!

Issue

If Ellen makes things hard for me, why not make things just as hard for her?

Vocaroo

Nessun Dorma


Voice Recorder >>

Edit: not that great but think it's been listened to, just for 1 hopeful part..

I know, I know.

Ellen hates me cuz I had dark hair as a child.  She thinks oh it's about these little kids and people my age with those hidden blonde tips.

Oh

I threw up and my throat was hurt bad.

Vocaroo

Nessun Dorma - Take 2


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Quality No Quantity

I guess beginning singers are most interesting.  My 2nd recording is not as good.

Yes, easier to improve younger.

Vocaroo

Audio recording and upload >>

Nessun Dorma

I hope it's okay I had the background playing in the back.  I tried to make it so you can't hear it.  I know sometimes those things are okay.  I hope the next 1 hides it better.  Ah!  I dunno!  It might be best to just post it, but I dunno.  I might take it down.

You, sir|sire, are incredibly rude.

You just want someone else when you talk to me.

BUT

that's why I don't have any - 1 so other kids don't get jealous 2 cuz it'd be 1/2 not my kid more than anyone else

refuse to have a boy, at least for awhile

Which Makes

Kids today shit and worth nothing.

I caught you!

I sense somberness in Sarah Brightman and a big *** feeling in Ellen DeGeneres over kids ^young enough to be their children^ but not the oldest possible.

There, I've said it!

I can't have people doing inappropriate things to my physically making me emotionally handicapped.

Problem

Ellen always acts unimpressed with me.  I didn't like iTunes, thought I was above that.  I have so many problems with my iTunes.

Are any of you aware and bothered..

..about my spiel of Andrew Lloyd Webber?  =[

I was so upset I don't want anything to do with him and his copyright fetishes.  Just say if you don't want us to post them if it means that much to you.  Maybe, they'll tell us, someday.

A Wise Person

once told me

I bet

That you need spare time just to get your groundings and check on yourself and see if all things are being taken care of.  It was a big thing, I think, on some level.

New Picture of Me

And if I do something right..

..you have something to complain about.

I don't like what was done.

I can see what you did.  You fixed something, but you replaced it with shit for your own happy bit.

Thinking

I think I will start thinking with the benefits that Chloe Moretz has but keep my hip Florida 90s duo tuo.

NIGGER

YOU THINK I AM

Problem

My dad is just a devil.  This is too much to process.  My nose?  Should I sit there and rub my Gramma's v*****?  And don't say anything Ellen, you have nothing to say.  I think I've covered this enough for you all do learn to do a little thinking.  You're just *beep*  Just go away and leave me alone.  Gramma, too, who you all, the world, helped kill, helped kill many Grammas, that Tim Burton.  I can't say I'm sorry, it's true.

Good

I consider this a pay taking the pain to visit.

Wha?

How dare you reach out and make sure I wouldn't seek you out.

The Level

Why is it like everyone around me is worthless shit beating a drum that I'm in trouble for inconveniences??

I may be an adult, but people can still be cruel to me.

I think because of Ellen when I didn't accept my aunt acting differently, my Gramma made deliberate noises several times that sounded like I was "not Caucasian."  I finally asked my dad and Gramma something like, "Why are you being mean to me?" several times.  My Gramma seems triumphant over me.  If it wasn't right in any way, I'm not a bad person.  They're not supposed to treat me so harshly.  She ruined 1 side of my nose, somehow messed me up as I was talking.  I don't want a little ring there.  On the other side, there's a line.  Both are very ugly.  Evana Lynch did that on Twitter.  Also, I refuse to take punishment like this if anyone changed themselves for me and I .. ^enjoyed^ .. it, which I didn't.

Apology

Sorry I am so outta it. Ellen does have hard decisions. I woke up grumpy, sorta. Well, tired..

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Problem

See, now, Ellen thinks she's the queen. These posts are not meant to be harmless and, for saying that, nothing really happens, Ms. Clown who is mean to a nice person like me and racist.



I have to worry about all these people going all monster and severing ties. They are mean to me to test if I am mean back. I am at presence distanced from my dad. He suggested the next 2 Christmases and my birthday, which is a long time and I'll be 29.



The thing @ the birthday set me off.



I see the nigger word offsets lotta people.



I think my dad was going insane. Like he's on what's related to stuff thinking he's listening to a higher power.



Well, I hope these problems stop. Why was Ellen nice until I stopped talking to my Gramma each night so much but now it's bad?!?!

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Problem

My dad was just irritating me on Ellen's orders, and that happy brat is annoying to me. It mighta been a communication, but that Ellen. I got over it, but my dad kept going and I kept having bad words come to my mind. I won't accept any punishment from *** Ellen nor my dad. She is all fascinated over for me some things are not what. I get annoyed at Bella, but I also like her. I never said anyone to follow me as my demand. Like she thinks me knowing people outta my family is not what. I don't need dumb blonde jokes. She can't watch me and make the time miserable. I realize it wasn't that bad, but my dad was just listening to her and if I thought of the word nigger by accident! Yes! I was mad at Ellen.

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Problem

My aunt can't indicate like I'm Chinese. Get Ellen away. I just noticed they were mean to me. They are acting stupid things. They are trying to take away what's important. Don't even think about it.

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Problem

Why does Ellen think I wanna deal with her nonsense?



My dad's unacceptable arousing-wise, as well. He made a noise.



I do not accept this naughty cliche of idealizing teens.



Etc.



Ellen is ***. She is an invalid emotionally and discipline-wise.

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Problem

Why does Ellen think I wanna deal with her nonsense?



My dad's unacceptable arousing-wise, as well. He made a noise.



I do not accept this naughty cliche of idealizing teens.



Etc.



Ellen is ***. She is an invalid emotionally and discipline-wise.

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Apology

Sorry I got upset again on the inside.

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Wha?

Why does Bella think I'm up for her complaining? She wants it a law that I not post in public and no one magnets to me. Is that because everyone is in her stupe? I can't do it for you. You need to do it..

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Apologies

in my rant of an existence

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Problem and Stuff

Why is everyone acting like I'm bad and following Ellen to fit in?



Bella Thorne is not more okay than me nor everyone. She is getting away with an easy mean life. I am not someone who you can pick on. It's not everyone be mean to Christina.



Ellen does have precious heritage. Let's respect it. However, we weren't blessed and therefore unhappy.



So, Bella can be with Ellen, and I can do something else. Bella, go somewhere interesting while you still can.



Did you know Marilyn Monroe is related to people/someone from the Mayflower? I find her as a kid interesting. She seems smart.

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Question

Should I have bothered to ask why my gramma said not Caucasian it sounded? I texted my dad @ them. I wasn't trying to come on.



I feel stimulated how I don't wanna and don't know what to touch, how to feel more as before without thinking.



Why is Ellen fixed up so comfortably? I see people treating me racistly. You all used to say I was a person but are just jealous of my age.



I should stop, but Ellen probably thinks I should mention everything is why I probably said more but not a lot lot.



Look, my Gramma is 2-sided. Why am I feeling stimulation again? I might just go back to bed. I just was concerned, but my dad is annoying and acts like it's bad. To ask. I was getting breakfast. Time to run in and face the day and get some water.



I didn't say anything else. I just was mad when people got mad like I'm bad and life sucks.



I will probably take exercise and acting in college to get in a movie. I still am a singer capably, but I don't wanna sing just opera. My loan probation is lifted beginning next year. I dunno. I could do more than 1 thing or wait. Only better wait than never.



I'm tired of the game of me being in trouble for nothing. I slipped up being made fun of but believe it was bad. I wanna know, nothing wrong with that. I'm not to be more careful. I already am. I can't escape. What would happen if I left home? Not as fun. I also need to know what major - theater, music, dance, art.. Or just switching @. I want to get in a movie. Dance would help. I may be most ready for theater.



What should I do? People keep calling me not white and acting foreboding. They threaten me. Why pretend? I don't care.

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