Sad

I woke up upset, my mom.

Why should I think I have anything?

I don't like when Ellen makes me feel on edge, how it is, she keeps acting like she's God, like we can't rebel at all cuz then she wouldn't "do it."  Can someone explain and fix this?  I'm sure this will be a problem intellectually to understand anything and how mad we can get at something she says.  It will come even if we don't want it to.  It's work.  It hasn't worked.  I wanted it to.  Maybe, I should ask maybe she is getting old, along with Sarah Brightman.  So sad.  I wasted all these years..  xp