Problem

My point was not to disturb my family.

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Apology

Sorry, I lost it this morning, but you also get the picture. Have fun.

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I'm not gonna

care about Ellen on top.  I said I just wanted to post on my blog.

Problem

My neighbors don't matter.  My dad just did something mean.

Wow

Things suck with Ellen.  This person in my room won't shut up.

Worthless

Some people are being worthless and interfering my family life.

Mobile Later

may or may not post

Problem

My dad is talking more!  He won't frikkin stop.

THEY ARE MAKING ME IRRITATED.  I SAID STOP.

Problem

My dad's just a dodo.  I don't care if Ellen is friend.

Problem

My dad just acted like my voice was black.  From "Happy!"  I'm not worshipping ELLEN.

Bipolar Appreciation

Well, I did figure something out.  For me, I think it's cool to be American, but like for instance I think I'm Dutch and then I feel like I'm Dutch-American.  Anyway, some old, some new Irish.  Ellen seems to think she's even God over people in Europe.  People think since I'm lucky I'm nothing biologically from my mom.  It's like being Chinese, not showing it.

Hm..

..now you wanna ruin my relationship. Ellen is self-centered..

Hmph!

It's up to us to be who we wanted, and Ellen didn't seem to care as much.

Let's have a party.

Ew, not about not having a dad from the U.S.  They are so nice.  They can't get a break.  Their moms are American.

Wow

What's the big deal?  Ellen is being babied all the time.  I ain't fallin' for yer crap.

Why do people see Ellen as the crucible angel?

So what if her dad's out of the US!!

Problem

THEY WON'T QUIT.

*aw*

I'm sorry my sad little puppy.  U99U

Well

I was just posting and gonna go off but I needed a fart about my family to flare forward.

I DON'T CARE

I can take it.

I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE YOU EW WHY ARE YOU ACTING DISGUSTING

I SAID STOP STIMULATING ME

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO HAVE MY DAY I'M A LITTLE TIRED and now stimulated

Problem

YOU AIN'T GOT NOTHING ON ME RACIALLY, you have no idea how many curse words I've swore against you.

Problem

Why do you think you can even talk to me.  I'm running outta time.

Problem

Stop making fun of my family.  I think the Middle East likes me.

I'm not cool.

Indicating I am not white or Asian is something that affects me cuz I know no one said it when I was younger.  They weren't supposed to even give hint of it.  What's all this now?  I don't wanna be ugly Asian.  If you call me that or affect me, .. with people I greet they'll be bawling on the street for they are not white and I may bite.  Yea, you think you're all so white, but I can say you aren't.  I can calculate what you're thinking, I don't need to feel it.  I think this is all cuz you people are acting like I'm in trouble, but you're the crazy 1s.  I feel like I can't do anything today now, and no one I know should be invovled.

..disturbing.  Someone doesn't get that Asian is ugly.  I get that WHITE IS UGLY!

Why would anyone call me not white?  I am not like other Eurasians, and you are not perfect.  I am not an ape.  I am not a worm.

THEY ARE BOTHERING ME.

Why would we grow up not doing this and then all of a sudden you do it to someone you can't even figure out why you think you're even pressing a button.  You can't lie and tell me I like something in some perverted way.  You ^did it^ for the other kids to feel white like that's so precious to you.  You're stealing someone else's accomplishments.

How am I supposed to live?  What do you think I am, shit?  Well, YOU JUST LOST YOUR CHANCE.  I want this crazy horseshit to stop plaguing ME.

I don't feel like posting this cuz it made me feel different..  I am not up for this like this.  I didn't k*** anyone, I have no idea what the **** is happening!  I didn't do something.  I just talked.  I didn't sit there and call people niggers literally.

This is nasty, making fun of a bond with someone, too.

YOU PEOPLE STOP TALKING TO ME LIKE THAT.  YOU'RE MESSING WITH MY BODY.  UNLIKE YOU, I CAN TALK.  I DON'T TAKE YOUR PUNISHMENT.

THEY'RE MESSING WITH ME AND MY BODY SOMEONE HELP YOU STOP IT STOP IT STOP

Saving Energy

Ellen isn't really efficient to a needlepoint, but why judge others when they have to balance energy?

Chat

hi

spyhey :))

christinaso wut up

spynot much. I just wanted a chat room so we can post anything we want including any links

christinaok

christinahow's life

spyok.. a little tired. bored. etc You?

christinai'm going 2 disney 2moro

spywow nice :)) congrats.

spyhaven't been there in ages

christinai am gonna audition to be in a holiday performance group there - there's nowhere to dance in orlando..

spyahh sounds fun

christinaso i'm jogging each day or each other day.. and getting a nutribullet hopefully this coming week..

spycool.

christina..i just joined the spca and i am gonna volunteer for 3 hours at the clinic desk - seems like a good opportunity.. most shifts are 3 hours, mine is 4

christinai'm all alone, though..

spyall alone?

christinayes, the regular greeters can host 4 volunteers

christinaeventually i will have some form of work for money

christinathe audition is the next 2 fridays

spycool

christinaare you older than me

christinalol..

spyprobably

christinayou don't have to tell..

christinawhat's your personality like, important question

spymy personality?

christinayea.. like jock, ..

christinadrama

spyi like to read

spythink

christinai used to, but now i need more exercise but like self-help books..

spyyah

christinai dunno bout me

christinai'm not in school

christinai never had a personality

christinai know all about them

spyyou seem pretty happy

spyeasy going

christinayea

spyi'm like that

christina

spyhey

christina2 bad we're not in person now

spyso have you used this before?

christinano

christinai always wanted to im people

spyahh ok

christinaif we were in person we could go to disney

spyI've never really used this before either

christinalol

christinai know we should save the conversation!

spyhmm dunno how

christinaLet's try me typing in caps and with periods and see how you feel about my real personality on IM.

christinaI still ROFLMFAO.

christinaOops, I dunno, is that bad to say?

spyno

christinaWhat about: IROTFLMMFAO.

spythat's ok

spynothing bothers me

spythat's the whole point of this chat room. no censorship

christinaWhat else.. "I like 2 talk 2 2 many people 2 get friendly."

christinaHa ha. Yea, no censorship by auto pilot.. That really bites me.

christinaAny authority I defy and deny and reply and rectify.

spyyou're hetero right?

christinaTechnically. I kind of support it.

christinaI'm open to being close outside of marriage.

christinaI had a full life.

spytechnically? are you bi?

christinaWell, if some teen comes up to me online who's gay, I accept it.

spyhmm ok

spyi'm just confused by everyone's sexual orientation in the soapbox

christinaI guess I like it better if a female is mushy.. but not all

christinaOh, good idea.

christinaIf I'm gay, I don't wanna be..

christinaIt's like Schwarzald Legion said.. his schizophrenia is just there.

spyhe's schizo?

christinaYes.

christinaI take meds for it.

christinaI don't have it, they said before, though.

spyhmm

spyi sort of suffered mild schizo earlier in life

spybut i have been getting better

christinaAw.

christinaDid you know that my dad said I was called retarded when I was gifted?

spyhm

christinaI remember in kindergarten, I heard the words but just didn't know what was going on. I think I felt dumb cuz my mom made me ugly as a punishment, maybe thinks I'm more my dad's kid.

christinaI didn't make gifted my 1st year of high school, the 2nd.

christinaAnd I was valedictorian in junior high.. not a big deal.

spyYou seem much more lucid here

christinaIf a kid does bad in school does not mean they are schizo. Oh, thanks!

christinaYou seem like an old friend.

christinaAre you allowed to tell how old your parents are?

spymy parents are old. i'm in my early 40's

christinaMy dad is born in 1950.

christina

christinaI'm 28, just had a birthday. I don't feel 30. I just feel like I'm not a fair maiden of 20.

spyyah i remember that

spyturning 30

spyno big deal

spyyou're still very young

christinaYea. I still wanna be a performer. Been wanting and doing it.

christinaKicked outta college.

spyhey

christinaDid you think a lotta young people are oblivious and bad.. yea?

spywhat do you think of apolyptic?

christinai like him

spywhy

christinaBecause he is cute, but I think that he is getting himself into trouble.

christinaI should talk to him.

spyi think i know who he is a sock of

spybut he's kind of a psychopath

christinazeblacktunasalezman?

spyno who is that

christinaAw.

christinaA black guy who posts a lot.

spyno it's not him i don't think

christinaI know Drew probably socks a lot.

christinaI don't even know his official account.

christinaHe dumped me and made me feel bad.

spyeh? you two were together?

christinaHe wanted to be but then wouldn't talk to me. I was mad like when he posted a panda, silly, but I got pretty mad, when he wouldn't talk right then.

christinaI think he used me, like Ellen DeGeneres.

christinaAttractive, nice people think I'm *beep*.

christinaMy parents *beep* me up.

spywhy

christinaSometimes, I'm silent.

christinaSometimes, I have something important to say..

christinaI dunno, cuz their race and I wanna be with people they supposedly aren't accepted by.

christinaPeople want ^never a dull moment^.

spyya

christinaYea, but sometimes I guess I turn schizo and think that's trash.

christinaWhat can I say? I want their status.

spywhat do you mean?

christinaPopularity.

spyhmm

spyi used to be popular

christinaCool!

spybut i never cared for it

christinaAre you still as skinny as you were before?

spypretty much

christinaI was pretty efficient.

christinaI 1st called myself here Miss-Fastidious.

christinaOn Tim Burton's board I was called Fastidiot.

christinaboardS.

christinaI was 22.

christinaHis mistakes have affected me.

christinaLike, he wants to be racist to be safe.

spywho?

christinaWhy dump me for saying so?

christinaBurton.

christinaIs that what he wants?

spyI don't understand what you're saying

christinaEllen is the same.. I think Ellen DeGeneres is racist. Would you rather me not talk about something I just said?

christinaLike the racism, cuz it's touchy?

christinaI thought most people found it a peak interest.

christinaA special topic;

spywell, I just don't follow them very much

spyhey

spyi'm gonna log off this chat for now

christinaOkay.. wanna chat later?

spysure... we can talk on board as well

christinaOkay. Thanks!
spyalrighty. logging off then. nice chatting with you.