I can't be worried @

•not having paper my whole life to write my cousin in Indonesia back, just the pictures and hand-me-downs come
•saying "oh no" when my dad came home until my mom told me to stop
•feeling shitty because of the last thing and not coming out as polite nor interesting to my family.. but it wasn't about them exactly
•flunking college
•charging store cards

•Ellen DeGeneres getting mad at me when there's nothing I an do to feel better with it like this
•Orlando's vicious part and sides and the way it affects what my family can do to me - they just can't get over it

Problem

I'm getting an influx of spam from Ellen of dirty messages.  They're popping up in real life, like posters on IMDb.

Problem

You're all stupid thinking that me getting mad means you can get at me like demons.

Problem

Quit interfering with how the page loads.

Problem

Ellen keeps punishing me.  Explain yourself!

Problem

Wow, this is affecting my eye.

Did Ellen get my favorite liverwurst to stop being made?

STOP

Ellen is rubbing in that I get punishments when they're supposed to not be!

Problem

What's wrong with that bitch Ellen?!  She needs to stop playing around.  She doesn't work or nothin'.  Why doesn't she just leave?

Problem

Ellen had someone on IMDb important delete.  Let's do it to her instead.

Tis Tis I found you out.

You all are just bad.  You wanna talk to people who know me and not me.

Who does she think she is?

Ellen can't say, "O-Oh, well, Christina's mom was mean and Christina didn't like it so some random person needs to be her mother at 28 an' I 'on' (and I don't) give a shit about her relationship with her mom."  What?  I care about my relationships.  I don't have anyone who's worth anything to me in the world, those people with their little German pinkies and whatnot.

Problem

I don't want my old best friends.  THEY WON'T TALK TO ME.  "You're ^rubbing it in.^"

Problem

Ellen keeps being mean to me after someone hurt me for her own benefit.

Upset

Why are people thinking my mom is so reputable and that I deserved my life to be shittier than her generation?  That I need to back off from my mom as though she deserves more.  Look at Ellen compared to her mom!  Ellen don't back off.  If she do, it's a trick.

What?

How can I forgive the people giving me the hateful messages?

I already said Ellen liked to lounge around with my suffering these stupid messages.

Apology

I've been upset by my parents so thought some bad things, they don't care to calm me willing..

Who supports..

..being **y like Ellen, like instead of a straight answer she rubs you up?

We don't get down'in'hea. (We don't get down in here.)

People from up north who moved to Florida around 7 mostly all seem to have come here to get down and get others down.  I'm from Florida, and gettiong down is a big thing.  I moved ^up north^ and we didn't get down there.

My Ideal

My ideal is that if you call me Chinese, I can say you're not really that white.  I know, I can track it.  I just thought of this as I wrote it.

I know a lot.

I know that you're not supposed to call someone 1/2 Chinese who doesn't look definitely Chinese and who doesn't seem to like Chinese Chinese.

I can recollect more.

I'm sorry if you can make out this post as offensive rather than defensive.

Anyway, right now, that's about all I know,