I know..

..none of you have to go through the method of all the details of why you've done what you've done.  If you didn't, then kindly remove yourself from my life.

(cont.)

Why?  I don't feel I can feel anything but from myself.

Not the Mama

Ellen

So, go ahead, fun and find..

If my dad said what he was thinking..

..he'd be in jail..

I don't.

Can't you Goddamn niggers ever move on cuz I don't give a shit @ you.

In the Car

I sang like all 60 karaoke songs I remembered the words to.

So

Bella was not abused cuz she wasn't a Buton fan, so-to-speak.

New Pictures of Me

Sorry

Was being nasty, don't mean anything against anyone.

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Goal

I wanna make a CD and tour steada Disney.

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Problem

Why is everyone on about Bella Thorne. For some reason, it's critically onto me. Why follow my reaction? Stop threatening me! D:' You're just giving me more to type. Actually, the people around me don't like it.

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Apology

I'm so sorry and got race-ly upset this morning. I'll try turning off.

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So

Don't fight over who does what, figure it out.



Sorry I was so mad.. I just felt like hitting. Like, sorry to burst my bubble. Got too violent. There there. Sorry for using a name. It isn't right to hurt me, tho. I do feel framed.

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Going Thru Things

Starting to like me less? Sorry I was irrational. Worthless is an important vocabulary word. I was being force m*****ed to not feel outsidea my family. Quit trading what I earned for BELLA. It's pretty bad here. This hurts and is such shit! I am tired of fighting. I don't know if someone decided to pattern and call me or if I had a multicultural baby a nigger. You getting antsy caused all these problems. If I didn't earn anything, why wouldn't I be treated like Bella Thorne? Too many people just shit to a kid? Bella is mean to take from me. STOP BEING BEMUSED and stop threatening me @ caring @ you after death! Bella didn't uncover this. You think I was untalented. Why is it suddenly too late and everyone else is as good? Some people are bothering me. If I was in high school, I'd still mean something. Maybe, the medicine is making me die. @ me wanting to hurt people, it's dangerous and I'm pushed to feeling and not changing from being shit. Some people are really upset with me.. woo hoo. I'm tired @ your shit @ my family. I mean the problems they have. They won't stop being dumb. Sending me dumb messages. Oh well. Does it bother you?

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Problem

You all listen to my dad or call me things I could sue you for.



You can't keep watching me closely. Some things you do my parents don't!

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Problem

You all listen to my dad or call me things I could sue you for.



You can't keep watching me closely. Some things you do my parents don't!

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Problems

You are trying to kill me for something Ellen doesn't like. I will make fun of this big program.



People keep telling me I should not be who I am to this day for things like Bella. I just felt upset by some people, sayd (sad.)

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Problem

You all listen to my dad or call me things I could sue you for.



You can't keep watching me closely. Some things you do my parents don't!

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STOP

Bella can't get everything. It's mine!

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Problem

You all listen to my dad or call me things I could sue you for.



You can't keep watching me closely. Some things you do my parents don't!

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SHUT UP YOU

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My Freedom

My gramma would get at me if I posted @ her being mean. Ya'll are goddamn picky @ any little thing in the past. You are irrational.



Now, I don't but seem to have to beg for any attention.



Stop acting like I did something! You are getting in my personal life, again. I didn't do anything. I don't even care @ you! Sound familiar?? I am not satisfied. Stop it! Shut up! Stop irritating me to wanna k*** you now.

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I feel upset.

No one cares @ me. When did you think this turn of events is okay. Someone is being really stupid. I feel like I'm being r***ed. Like I can't feel outside-a my family. I don't love them. I dunno, they are shit. I don't mean my little brother so much. I hear an annoying noise. Someone has found me. What are my parents? An excuse not to talk to me? Hm, well, I feel they are that mean collectively. I'm supposed to not say that, but people keep saying everything I do is for Bella and taking away from me other relationships. Nothing weird happened. I thought I was already accepted. My Gramma was mean. I need to stay away from others. If I get the Disney job holiday dancing, I can live alone in a special place for Disney cast members. I don't wanna be played with. Nothing is for me. I wanna meet people. But I'm stuck with my parents at 28. I feel m*****ed. If Bella gets everything, why not take it away like with me? I earned that, and it is taken from me. It's easy to do what you are supposed to. Stop bugging me about something special you give to anyone for age. I don't want to be made guilty. This is unfair. Shut up! I didn't do anything. Shut up! Stop it!!! You are nothing. I can't sleep! Just shut up stupid! This is a crime!

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Problem

THE MESSAGES AREN'T STOPPING!



I thought we coulda had something going. Forget @ my dad and gramma.



How am I supposed to feel good? What is your problem? You are so not worth it. I said you did something. Not saying anyone in particular. :I What? I demand you to stop it. I don't know how to stop this.

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Thanks a Lot

I don't know what mattered to you, but how dare you frame me into not meeting people. They are meeting other people.



I want this to stop.



You want me to think I don't have a personality. You want me to think I'm bad for no reason! What effort do I seem to lack? Is this the cry of ethnicity-race? Stop lying that I wanna be Asian. No, I do not disrespect them.



My dad is the 1 who is disrespectful and not me. I don't have anything, and I deserve to have succeeded. My life is leaving, slipping away from my hands.



Why won't anyone just talk to me? How do I get to know these people?

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Well

Maybe, I should not be afraid of if I'm up late.



So, what is the answer to people unhappy if someone attractive gives me attention? Did it touch a nerve? Come on. You don't really harass everyone like this. I'm not up @ equality of distribution. It isn't the same issue. Not everyone can know a few people personally. With that factor comes time, and it ain't a lifetime for anyone. Also, posting publicly, anyone should look. Don't sit there and try to complain @ these things to me.

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Apology

for if I've been rude.. ): ..

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Mas Problemas Mucho Grande

Ellen DeGeneres seems to have a reverberating effect I wish not to worry @. She acts like she needs some things kept to herself. Like attention. That's a lesson for talking to her. I don't like how my chance with her was thrown away with Tim Burton. This is far from amazing. I don't wanna die like this. I deserve to be famous over Burton. I'm sorry Ellen you can't admit when you were wrong and Mama knows it and it affects the world if you think what I do matters so much.



Maybe, she should branch out and somehow reach more people personally. We like her like Portia.

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Then Problems

Why is my dad so schizophrenic and wants to hurt me emotionally?



See, I am nice. They just want me to feel belittled cuza race. Funny how they trigger to someone like me who doesn't make any problems. Leave me alone if you aim to bug me like this and go coocoo if I talk @ something.



I won't stop being bugged.



This is a worthy topic, but I was trying to avoid talking @ it. Someone younger does not deserve more than older kids. You're disillusioned.

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LUV 8D

Spinning round and round in a festival with a bemused look.



Tim Burton not doing Alice 2. Art does not simply appear nor come to you.. "1% inspiration 99% persperation."



Why do adults idealize older children being infatuated by the youngest? They were supposed to do something.. Something happened that seemed big, but it became a topic outside of that math. I don't care what they want to see. They can't do that to someone younger they don't really love..

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And

You're not listenin' to all I say. (Shoop Shoop Song)



We didn't even have class bells.



I think I just crackedm

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I was so sad..

I said forget the barbie and coke if I'm too old to have ***y parents.



I am upset in the head.



No one will ever get around to playing with me. I am never made the center of attention.

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Apology

for letting my thoughts run free. I changed it immediately. I am a little upset in the head.

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Fun

New Orleans may be good, but if you cannot be New Orleanian do not have to feel it's better.



Can you be mad, emotional, and concerned at the same time?



Everyone knows I deserve something good to happen. I shoulda known you'd drop your pants.



Might think being from Jax, it was sweet to be there, but it's work and organization and responsibility.



Harmony: That's where it is!



So why is it a pain to give me affection but not those 10 years younger?



You want your kids not to be you but your kids.



Am I too old to appreciate classical singing?



Why are cool people obsessed that weird things are wrong?



So, Sarah Brightman makes you feel awake?



Why do Southerners hate people with Northern blood?



I want to sing The Prayer and Time to Say Goodbye with Andrea Bocelli. I was watching Time to Say Goodbye on YouTube.

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Fun

New Orleans may be good, but if you cannot be New Orleanian do not have to feel it's better.



Can you be mad, emotional, and concerned at the same time?



Everyone knows I deserve something good to happen. I shoulda known you'd drop your pants.



Might think being from Jax, it was sweet to be there, but it's work and organization and responsibility.



Harmony: That's where it is!



So why is it a pain to give me affection but not those 10 years younger?



You want your kids not to be you but your kids.



Am I too old to appreciate classical singing?



Why are cool people obsessed that weird things are wrong?



So, Sarah Brightman makes you feel awake?



Why do Southerners hate people with Northern blood?



I want to sing The Prayer and Time to Say Goodbye with Andrea Bocelli. I was watching Time to Say Goodbye on YouTube.

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Apologies

To anyone thought to be crass about.

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Stuff

For some reason, my body was or is swaying with breath. Something stressed popped.



New Facebook photo.



Is it a contest to you personally that whoever has *** with their dad gets a hug from someone like Ellen?



I know the way. You may not be the center of attention now but know how likely I can get in trouble.



Sorry your late babies need so much reassurance.



Chind actors are not the center of the world.



Imagine the genius France's adults born in the 70's is.



I'm a straight up Florida girl.

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This'll

make a person fart and fall over the table.



I didn't do anything wrong thoughtwise. You all give me the annoying messages.

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Wut..

I guess Facebook does not show all posts.



Also, my gramma, whose older than Ellen DeGeneres's mom by 2 years, told my dad she is ready to die and may in a year and a half. She seems a bit dead, like my retired aunt.

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Issues

Why have my relationships been trashed?



It doesn't make me feel good to always see mean people get the sugar in life their way.



I don't appreciate being supposedly manipulated, like if I have a kid. My decisions are mine. You can't keep knocking guilt in me for things you are afraid to speak up about. Say it, don't spray it. I might disagree. I'm being played with. You all just keep peeing in your pants and being robots. Sometimes, we've bent the rules, and some things are technically a way we don't perceive.



I don't wanna sit here and talk @ lies of things I won't get. I am fine how I am.



Why are people playing with what's in my body and what belongs to me?



People are so *** trying to catch me doing wrong. They have it up regularly, like a class in school. Talk @ a challenge. Being mean to me does not make you a good person.



They are messing with me in private. They are so tacky and annoying on the edge of their seat. So shallow. This is annoying me now.



Others play around, but when I do it seems wrong.



I heard that another person is beer for me.



Why am I being constantly attacked? Stop picking at me, liars. Why don't you just leave me alone? 'd be a pity. Something is bothering me trying to sleep. It won't stop. Stop telling me what to do. I'm already being okay!



Why do you repeat?

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College

What degree? Dance, or just ballet classes? Singing?

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Nite

Good night mi lovely .. Ellen



Bella, Chloe Grace Moretz, etc..



Sarah, the magnificent

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Problem

The stuff isn't stopping.

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Disturbed

My mom swung her arm thru like nothing was in me as someone.

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Problems

I got another annoying message from Ellen. D:



Nothing I can do @ what I did, but it's not what you think.

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Tired

People are tracking me down.

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Problem

I'm being annoyed.. Poked @ like Ellen did something. This person called me a l******. STOP! Ellen always says something bad. I wouldn't. I mean, I don't give a f*** @ what other people do. I won't try to be popular for them. I am annoyed. I didn't bring ear plugs.

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Apology

Not sure what to for now but sorry get cornered and mad. :(

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Wut

Stop saying I did something. Let's agree you did.



Did Facebook change so I have to read all the fan comments on mobile?



Wut? This isn't always fun.



Why can't you explain. I don't agree.



Wutever, I'll just post this. I'm already perplexed. I said I was cornered.. I'll just gripe and blame my problems.



Something else just happened..

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Mobile

may or may not post

Problem

They keep telling themselves they got me in the end.  I already said what I thought.

Problem

They're trying to turn me off, and the girls on Twitter are nasty.

Did you ever see into

how people are so tacky to be mean to me?

Bored

It's "in" to be outlandishly mean to me.

Insteada others ruining my life.

Problem

They are lying to me about stuff, like saying I can't do such and such.  Important things, social life.  They're fighting back now.

The Want to Kill

People want to kill people who are better than their kids.

So, who told her to..

..think these silly things?  I was right.  She just wants to say she took of someone.  I drew a picture of her with her hand around me on my breast, thinking she'd think that was the cool thing to do but has no care of "touching" people nor do I of being touched, as far as talking about it in a weird way would go.

I'm me.

If no one has anything to say, I'll be alone finding my true self, again.

"Are you okay??"

Well, at least you'll get rid of me faster.

I would never try to hurt anyone.  I have to wake up..

Just Watched This-

Getting Attention

Wow, Sarah, what do you know?  I don't get attention.  So, what was going on..

Test

Sarah, I am ready to lock you up and see if you understand I am not less attractive than the people you think I am.  Ya'll are rude.

Lock you up and see if malnutrition has any affect on you or racial background!

I'm just funning, dodos.

Issues

I don't feel loved anymore, Sarah, like you do.

You can't get at me with my Gramma cuz yer racist.

Meanie

Sarah Brightman thinks all my good qualities that make who I am should be no more and go to Bella Thorne.

Vocaroo

Some parts some interesting if you are up now and wanna hear what I'm doing.. not good, though.


Audio and voice recording >>

I don't mean to be rude..

..but what's up with that?

So

They might be kidding, might have some thing over me.. can't stop me.  I just can't live with it.

Problem

They said, "No, tonight I'm doing JD."  How irritating.  STOP!

If someone is mean, then they were mean.

Sarah Brightman wants to keep me outta good experiences and make fun of me?  I don't want her to keep thinking this weird shit about me..  (I hope you think the word shit sounded humorous..)

Like, I can't sing anywhere?  What did I do?  I just told people I was mad and was more forceful at 1st.

Sad

I just wanna be on people's good sides.  I sometimes can't sort out my thoughts and then post them on my blog and feel I've come to some conclusion.

Sorry

You all keep bothering me.

STOP

YOU CAN'T TELL ME NO - I DON'T HAFTA LISTEN - STOP TREATING ME SHITTY

Problem

They're teasing me and said I can't follow Sarah Brightman.

Problem

I try to sit and think, but I feel like I'm being closely monitored..  Why think it?  If you can't write it?

Facebook

link

Problem

Ellen started this problem sequence.

STOP

My mom is being trashy.

Weird

You act like I'm on Sara and Ellen all the time, but I'm not!  They can talk to anyone, not just me!  It'd be a pity to just trash my chance, though.

Can't Bottle It Up

I didn't want to say anything, but something's wrong.  I could have ignored it, but that's all they're saying.

Problem

These people are being coy like I wanna think @ them.  They think they ***y niggas.

Wha?

So how do you explain if there are kids who 1 is black 1 is white that my brother should be the same?

Article

comments by mem too

link

I tried

to have a good relationship.  YOU KEEP GETTING ALL UPPITY AND WANTING ME TO ADMIT PERSONAL THINGS ABOUT WHAT I DO OR HOW I ACT.

Problem

Stop talking to me, you *beep*  This is so worthless.

Problem

Ellen wants Sarah Brightman only to talk to Bella.  She did it.  I didn't do anything bad because of her.  You guys are just shit-to-me.  Stop being so mean.  What's your PROBLEM.  I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING.  YOU ALL ARE THE ONES CURSING AT ME BEING MEAN AND NO GOT NO RIGHT.

What's this?

Are you Sarah Brightman fighting?  WELL QUIT IT YOU *BEEP*

I don't listen to stupidity.

Mad

at Ellen

Well, yea, she put the noises in my room.

Problem

These people won't shut up and they losened a certain part of my body and made it for awhile more sensitive..

I should bang out whoever did this.  Give up your own friendship.

DON'T YOU DARE SAY QUIT IT.

Problem

I'm being made fun of for being a Sarah Brightman fan, and just because some people were mean to me and I got upset with them that they wanna shit around and sever my fanmanship.

Facebook

new friend page

link

Facebook

Problem

Quit making me mad.  I'm too old for parental punishment.  I didn't do anything to them.  They're making up stuff!

I don't wanna be pushed to be caught up in trouble with famous people.  Why, that's ridiculous.  You'd "rather" me feel embarrassed in front of them all.

What Literally Happened

I do take back the mad thoughts I had that were clearly cuz my parents were egging me on.  I'll tell you what I keep.. no attack.

It may be too late, another unfortunate situation.  It seems set up.

It's funny when you play

the organ, you need to learn all the fingers thru repetition.

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Mobile

may or may not post

So

Apologies for my disposable ways, all, even my parents who were mean to me.  I must say Bella is quite a creature sometimes.  She is just how she is.  I'm not asking any question.

Problem

My parents are really ruining my life, stupid Orlando thinks I still need guardians, but I was already set free, you can't even go back..

How dare you speak to me.

I want a real relationship.

Lost My Interest Prematurely

I got mad later.  My mom said, "It was the cookies."  My dad got disgusting store cookies I don't want!!  He keeps doing something mean each time he sees his mom.  What does that mean?  Well, to teens, it goes, "Go to Hell," and I'm not sure if I'm a teen, anymore..

It wasn't the actual thing so much as I'm truly anything but fed up.  Sick! Sick! Sick!  Lost in a young adult world of my own.  I shouldn't be online.